the river so deep

31 03 2008

Not sure what happened on Sunday morning, but by the time I got home from our services, I felt awful and went straight to sleep. I remained comatose from about 1p – 9p. Basically a night’s sleep. Thus explains why I began writing this post at a quarter past 4am. But what can I say? I’m a night-owl anyway.

Since Rock Band came into my life a few days ago, I’ve fallen way behind on my reading. Being up most of the night has given me a chance to catch up. Most of you know I read like it’s my spiritual gift. I read mostly fiction. My favorite books are either classics or sci-fi. I delve into fantasy and non-fiction every now and then as well. I don’t read many “Christian” books anymore. Why? A few reasons:

    1. I ate them up like candy in college when I was still a new believer and got burned out.
    2. I’ve read all the “criticals” like Mere Christianity, Desiring God, Wild at Heart, etc
    3. It may be just me, but most of the “hot” authors nowadays just seem to be regurgitating Piper, but “edgier” or are trying to show how “hip” the way they “do church” is.

      I will probably pick up Mark Driscoll’s newest soon though. I love that guy.

      I am also one who enjoys/appreciates the quiet night provides. I made a late-night snack and went to throw away some trash using our can on the porch when it struck me how quiet downtown Dallas can be in wee hours. This is definitely the City that Sleeps. It’s incredible that the epicenter of over a million people can be so calm. I was also struck by how awesome it is that the weather is finally changing. It was at least 70 out with a slight breeze and part of me just wanted to stay out there on the Porch till sun-up.

      Tonight/this morning has also given me time to reflect on the weekend. I’ll write more about this later, but over the last year and a half since coming to Texas I’ve been begging God to bring me a regular group of guys to do life with. I haven’t had much success in my past or present community groups yet, though granted my current group is very new and still getting to know one another. But this weekend made me realize I’ve begun to see that prayer answered.

      Also, on Saturday, I was initially very disappointed that only one person showed up for my monthly AV training. Again, it’s another topic for another day, but though I went in with a hurt attitude, I left the training very excited. David, my new volunteer, was so anxious to get started serving with my Campus Tech Team that it reminded me how awesome it is to be doing what I’m doing. I feel like I’d lost a lot of my passion over the last couple years, but his enthusiasm was a welcome rejuvenation.

      Whether it be sensing God in the stillness, seeing him in the changing of the seasons, or reflecting on his goodness and provision, it’s these simple things that I think we all tend to miss when we don’t find enough quiet during the day.